Regaining My Dreams

Amy. 21. Wild dreamer,hippie hopeful, lost and broken, art lover of all kinds. Bipolar disorder, anxiety, panic disorder, type 1 diabetes, in recovery from diabulimia and EDNOS a- I categorize them separately because the EDNOS is my restrict/binge/over exercise/whatever cycle. Also trying to recover from self harm and suicidal ideation in it's many demon forms. Been in inpatient/residential treatment for my eating disorder for 3 months last year, and am currently in PHP treatment for my mental illnesses. I get lost in my dreams and nightmares sometimes, in the poetry of light and dark and imagination. The Fairy Realms call my name. I'm not sane-but what is sane anyways? I know that my God is mighty to save :) Please ask me if you have any questions or just want to talk. I would love to get to know anyone and to help in anyway that I can. This blog may be triggering at times, I try not to be but I can't catch everything and I don't want to censor myself completely- I need a place where I can be free.
Do the next right thing. <3 Amy

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May232013

Reblog if you’d like 1 message from a curious anon.

2AM

I’m so lonely.

1AM

Anonymous asked: I love you and you are exactly who you need to be to have everything you've ever wanted so please keep trying to accept yourself, you are so so so worth it!

Awww I don’t know who you are but you are so sweet this is a lovely message :) <3

1AM

Treatment tomorrow. I hope I get something out of it. I am feeling pretty sick and lonely right now.

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May222013

Anonymous asked: you will know you have not eaten enough if you get ketones. to save money I buy a pack of 50 urine strips and cut them all in half. anyway you have to know they are starvation ketones vs. diabetes ketones. but if you don't have ketones you have had enough to eat to meet your needs. it is also relative to how much you have exercised, but if you have ketones you have not had enough to eat

Well it wasn’t to that point where I would get ketones and I ended up eating so it’s all good. But thank you for the advice!

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Anonymous asked: You could volunteer at the library or at the local museum. Maybe at a church?

Yeah I think I’m going to do VBS at my church, lead the music portion hopefully as I’ve been doing that for years and I love it.

1AM

Sad Times at Amy’s Room

Bye bye followers…don’t know why you went but hope I didn’t offend you…

I feel like crying. Probably because I have not taken my Seroquel yet.

Also my Ask Buddy has disappeared :( Is it because I didn’t ask YOU any questions? I tried, I did, but there were too many gray faces and I didn’t know which one was YOU. Is it because I’m ugly? Oh dear :( I’m serious about that one, actually.

I’ve been exercising. It doesn’t seem to make me feel better like all the doctors and everyone I talked to claimed, that all the endorphins would magically swoop in and change my brain! I just feel the same way I did when I exercised before…fat. And like I’m punishing myself for that fact.

Also I….TW

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