Regaining My Dreams

no I live in Canada and have never been to treatment. I found you blog through other diabulimia girls. well 1st I found your twitter. I am not the only one who sends you anon messages. because I see quite a few that are not from me. there is something about you that is just so sincere. that is why I look at your tumblr

Sat, 25 May 2013 02:25:32 -0400

oh no it’s totally okay it’s just that one of the messages sounded like a guy I’m in treatment with atm in day treatment and I was trying to figure out if it was him! I really do appreciate you reading my blog :)

I am glad to hear you are with a friend . I wound up having some clonazapam .

Sat, 25 May 2013 02:10:05 -0400

For real though. Do I know you from treatment?

I need to study and tips on not being distracted by sad feelings and anxiousness ?

Sat, 25 May 2013 02:00:22 -0400

Try to put 100 percent into the studying so it distracts you. Also, make sure you are physically okay-have eaten enough, have had some fluids, taken your meds, are comfortable, all wounds are taken care of. I know that sounds weird but those are problems I have to deal with and I assume others with mental illness do too!

I was totally out of it earlier today like super sedated. It was weird. I kept nodding on the way...

Sat, 25 May 2013 01:47:00 -0400

I was totally out of it earlier today like super sedated. It was weird. I kept nodding on the way over to treatment/at treatment.

My best fraaan is sleeping over tonight and I love it because we don’t even have to talk, just hang out quietly together reading, tumbling, coloring, etc.

So I feel pretty good right now emotionally. Let’s hope it lasts.

xoxo Amy

dear Amy, you make me feel less alone in this world.

Sat, 25 May 2013 01:44:30 -0400

I’m glad, but who are you?

I feel very anxious and sad. wow the anxious and sad feeling is nasty awful. I wish I had some Ativan

Sat, 25 May 2013 01:44:21 -0400

Use your coping skills, you can do it without the Ativan if you aren’t prescribed any!

Does tumblr have a chat feature ?

Sat, 25 May 2013 01:43:36 -0400

No, you can just come off anon and tell me who you are though…I kind of think I know you in real life.

your tumblr theme was messed up for months. I checked your blog daily, but could not ask questions. then you got that ask fm thing and I told you

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:54:39 -0400

Yup, thanks for doing that! :)

Have you ever regretted the way treated someone ? or would you say you have ever been mean to someone ?

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:54:29 -0400

Yeah, I am sure I have been mean to someone or not behaved in the best way for sure (I’m a sinner) but I DO always feel guilty when I realize that I’ve been mean or disrespectful.

"Physics says: go to sleep. Of course you’re tired. Every atom in you has been dancing the shimmy in..."

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:53:15 -0400

“

Physics says: go to sleep. Of course
you’re tired. Every atom in you
has been dancing the shimmy in silver shoes
nonstop from mitosis to now.
Quit tapping your feet. They’ll dance
inside themselves without you. Go to sleep.

Geology says: it will be all right. Slow inch
by inch America is giving itself
to the ocean. Go to sleep. Let darkness
lap at your sides. Give darkness an inch.
You aren’t alone. All of the continents used to be
one body. You aren’t alone. Go to sleep.

Astronomy says: the sun will rise tomorrow,
Zoology says: on rainbow-fish and lithe gazelle,
Psychology says: but first it has to be night, so
Biology says: the body-clocks are stopped all over town
and
History says: here are the blankets, layer on layer, down and down.

”

- Albert Goldbarth, “The Sciences Sing a Lullabye” (via fleurishes)

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Sat, 25 May 2013 00:35:04 -0400

Reblog this if you've ever been inpatient in any kind of mental hospital.

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:06:57 -0400

recovery-of-an-anorexic-male:

emirexia:

I’m just curious how many other people have been inpatient

Scariest Times Of My Life.

whys it hard to choose what to wear?

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:03:18 -0400

I have really bad body image and also I get obsessive so it’s just hard all around. I hate it.

Thanks for inspiring me so much you are seriously an angel

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:01:48 -0400

Thanks so much lovely :) tell me who you aaaaree!!! That was like one of the nicest things someone has told me! <3

When can you wear shoes?

Fri, 24 May 2013 23:20:48 -0400

Well I am going to the doctor Tuesday for various reasons so I will probably ask then what to do. I like going barefoot though anyways. Which diabetics aren’t really supposed to do. Oh well.

You figured out what to wear?

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:13:09 -0400

Yes, eventually. I wore a flowy gray, lavender, and black top, jean shorts, and pink flip-flops. Super boring, but I can’t wear my cute shoes because shoes hurt my feet too much right now (diabetes/self harm)

Bipolar disorder:

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:42:38 -0400

misandryismagic:

Knowing that no matter how many good days in a row you have, you will always inevitably be crushed by sadness that feels infinite again.

I need to take my Seroquel and go to sleep ASAP because I have treatment in the...

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:27:41 -0400

I need to take my Seroquel and go to sleep ASAP because I have treatment in the morning…but….what to wear tomorrow? Gosh I’m ridiculous who even cares I wish I weren’t so obsessive over ridiculous things like that!

Wanna have sex next time you're in Colorado?

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:03:02 -0400

Uh….no…this is kind of weird and creepy….

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Thu, 23 May 2013 21:23:50 -0400