Amy. 21. Wild dreamer,hippie hopeful, lost and broken, art lover of all kinds. Bipolar disorder, anxiety, panic disorder, type 1 diabetes, in recovery from diabulimia and EDNOS a- I categorize them separately because the EDNOS is my restrict/binge/over exercise/whatever cycle. Also trying to recover from self harm and suicidal ideation in it's many demon forms. Been in inpatient/residential treatment for my eating disorder for 3 months last year, and am currently in PHP treatment for my mental illnesses. I get lost in my dreams and nightmares sometimes, in the poetry of light and dark and imagination. The Fairy Realms call my name. I'm not sane-but what is sane anyways? I know that my God is mighty to save :) Please ask me if you have any questions or just want to talk. I would love to get to know anyone and to help in anyway that I can. This blog may be triggering at times, I try not to be but I can't catch everything and I don't want to censor myself completely- I need a place where I can be free.
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Tomorrow is going to be really hard. I’m going to the beach for my mom’s birthday. Bikini time…for the first time since I’ve been in recovery and gained weight.
I meant to use my meal plan and follow tallies today but I failed miserably…My meal plan is supposed to be:
What I ACTUALLY had was:
1 1/2 Protein
The food I ate was:
Bran flakes with milk
Roll w/ butter
Grilled chicken salad w/ cucumber dressing
Probably around 1000 calories in total? I don’t know. I feel weak and tired but yet when I look at my list it seems like a ton. But I mean the milk was nonfat, the yogurt was only 80 calories, and the salad had the lightest dressing possible and just a lot of veggies and the bit of chicken, not a bunch of added things. I don’t know. I think I’m obsessing.